Happy Poly 2020

At the end of last month, I planned to do a whole "year in review" sort of thing but as I tried to find words to encapsulate how I felt about the year those words never really came to me. So I deleted the draft today and started over. I've decided to free write all of my blogs and then edit them. I think I've been writing from a writer's point of view and not from a person's point of view. I've noticed my writing can be a bit like I'm writing an article and not speaking to someone.  That's the purpose of freewriting. I'd like to show more of my personality and who I am overall with my writing as well as inspire other POC polyamorous/non-monogamous folks to blog about their lives and experiences.

So what can I say about last year besides the fact that it had its ups and downs? Well, I ended a relationship, started a relationship and picked back up the lost relationship. That sounds like too much right? Lol, it was but then again it wasn't. Some of my relationships got stronger. I learned a few things about myself along the way as well.  Every year I learn more about the person I am and the people who love and support me.   I've been brimming with pride and love most. Some people will never know or understand how it feels to have more than one person who truly loves you. More than one person you can celebrate all of your triumphs with, More than one person to visit and experience different things with.  It feels absolutely amazing!!!

After a year of being the group owner for Black & Poly Cleveland, I decided to step down and disband the group. I felt sad but I was also frustrated. After a whole year, people still weren't showing up to the meetups. I thought maybe it was the location or time then I realized no matter what any time or location won't be good for some people. We may not be ready for this here in Northeastern Ohio, no matter how many people say that they are. People, especially us black and brown folks, just aren't out and doing things within polyamory. I would blame certain things like conservative living and the weather but I won't. I simply wasn't going to waste more time and energy on the group. I did meet a few cool people along the way and the overall experience was positive. I'm grateful for the experience and will add to the "life experiences" pile.

Stay tuned because I think this year will hold more experiences and adventures.